One of the reasons I wanted to start this blog was to share some of the ways I’ve been trying to help my anxiety.
1 in 50 adults will experience Generalised Anxiety Disorder (GAD) at some point in their life, which means it’s safe to say that anxiety is pretty common. That doesn’t mean that each person suffering from anxiety isn’t important; it doesn’t mean that they’re just a statistic. What it does mean is that there are plenty of blogs, articles and websites dedicated to understanding and dealing with anxiety.
The first thing I did to start tackling this thing was talk to someone about what was going on in my head. I’m lucky. I have an incredibly supportive other half, parents who only ever want to see me happy and a very close group of friends, some of whom have been through the same thing. Talking helped. It made it real and spurred me on to stop the anxiety from taking over.
Secondly, I took some time for myself. Although this technically wasn’t my decision, taking some time off work has really helped me to realise how I’m feeling and start to understand why I’m feeling that way. It’s helped me to realise that I am happy; I’m happy in my work, with my personal relationships, with my life. Whenever I feel down, I know it’s not me, it’s just the anxiety being a bastard.
I bought a notebook and I started to write down everything that is worrying me. My worries range from having not left enough time to do the dishes before H gets home, right through to worrying about money and my health. The worries differ from minute to minute, but the worrying is constant. This sounds incredibly downbeat, right? Well, opposite each page of worry is a page of inspiration. This page could be a quote, a list of things that makes me happy, a list of things that make me calm (I like lists – in fact, the top thing on my list of things that make me calm is “lists”) or just a doodle. Writing everything down has also helped me to identify what causes my anxiety to turn into panic. Hopefully, with a bit of professional help, I can then completely avoid the thinking traps that end in the panic. I tell you now, I need to end the panic, because it is not nice.
This isn’t everything, it’s just the start of getting this thing under control, but it is helping. I start back at work on Monday – I feel as though I’ve come such a long way in just two weeks, so hopefully I can keep on going at this exponential rate and stop anxiety from taking over my life again.
Until next time,