THIS IS ANXIETY & IT WILL PASS.

THIS IS ANXIETY & IT WILL PASS.

 One of the reasons I wanted to start this blog was to share some of the ways I’ve been trying to help my anxiety.

1 in 50 adults will experience Generalised Anxiety Disorder (GAD) at some point in their life, which means it’s safe to say that anxiety is pretty common. That doesn’t mean that each person suffering from anxiety isn’t important; it doesn’t mean that they’re just a statistic. What it does mean is that there are plenty of blogs, articles and websites dedicated to understanding and dealing with anxiety.

The first thing I did to start tackling this thing was talk to someone about what was going on in my head. I’m lucky. I have an incredibly supportive other half, parents who only ever want to see me happy and a very close group of friends, some of whom have been through the same thing. Talking helped. It made it real and spurred me on to stop the anxiety from taking over.

Secondly, I took some time for myself. Although this technically wasn’t my decision, taking some time off work has really helped me to realise how I’m feeling and start to understand why I’m feeling that way. It’s helped me to realise that I am happy; I’m happy in my work, with my personal relationships, with my life. Whenever I feel down, I know it’s not me, it’s just the anxiety being a bastard.

I bought a notebook and I started to write down everything that is worrying me. My worries range from having not left enough time to do the dishes before H gets home, right through to worrying about money and my health. The worries differ from minute to minute, but the worrying is constant. This sounds incredibly downbeat, right? Well, opposite each page of worry is a page of inspiration. This page could be a quote, a list of things that makes me happy, a list of things that make me calm (I like lists – in fact, the top thing on my list of things that make me calm is “lists”) or just a doodle. Writing everything down has also helped me to identify what causes my anxiety to turn into panic. Hopefully, with a bit of professional help, I can then completely avoid the thinking traps that end in the panic. I tell you now, I need to end the panic, because it is not nice.

  

 This isn’t everything, it’s just the start of getting this thing under control, but it is helping. I start back at work on Monday – I feel as though I’ve come such a long way in just two weeks, so hopefully I can keep on going at this exponential rate and stop anxiety from taking over my life again.

Until next time,

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THERE IS NO JOY IN LIVING YOUR WHOLE LIFE ON THE GROUND.

THERE IS NO JOY IN LIVING YOUR WHOLE LIFE ON THE GROUND.

  
My love for aerial began three years ago. It began with pole fitness classes in my second year of university at Bodybarre Fitness Studio in Manchester. I had wanted to start in my first year but the standard excuses had stopped me.

“I’m so unfit.”

“I’ll never be able to even lift myself off the ground.”

“I have no upper body strength.”

Blah blah blah. Thank god in my second year I just sucked it up and went for it, it’s one of the best decisions I ever made. Pole fitness was the first form of exercise I actually enjoyed, so much that even now I don’t see it as exercise – the fitness part is just a bonus.

Pole fitness is a gateway drug. I moved back to Sheffield and to a new studio – Butterfly Fitness, and there it began. My love of pole fitness has extended to a love of aerial fitness. I love them all. Aerial hoop, silks, I even traveled to Liverpool to take an aerial yoga class.Unfortunately there are no studios in Sheffield that teach aerial yoga (business idea?!) but other than that I can aerial until my heart is content.

Aerial has become such a massive part of my life. For two hours, twice a week, I manage to forget about everything else in the world – which for me is massive. I can relax. I can enjoy the present and have no thoughts about the past or the future. It’s my escape from my anxiety into a world that I completely love.

I’ll leave this post with a few photos of my aerial adventures – and if you do get the chance to try any kind of aerial fitness – just do it!IMG_0071

Until next time,

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LET’S TALK ABOUT ANXIETY.

LET’S TALK ABOUT ANXIETY.

  
This is an important one for me, among many other things, it’s the reason I’ve decided to start blogging again.

“I’ve always been a worrier, it’s just the way I am.”

A couple of weeks ago I found out that that’s not entirely true. There’s a reason behind it all – turns out it’s not that normal to spend your life constantly worrying. I have anxiety, and recently it’s got worse.

It may sounds entirely stupid, but I’m glad it got worse. The anxiety & panic has been horrendous, don’t get me wrong, but without it starting to seriously affect my work, I’d have never done anything about it. I’d have never gone to the doctors. I’d have never heard the doctor say the words that really struck a chord.

“Humans aren’t naturally anxious.”

It may not sound like much, but hearing the doctor say that really hit home that this state of being that I was so used to wasn’t normal, it wasn’t just me and I could do something about it.

In the past couple of weeks, I’ve done plenty of research. The anxious feelings will probably never go away, but I can learn how to manage it. Learn how to stop the anxiety from progressing to panic. As well as trying some self help methods to try to manage my stress levels, I’ve booked my first Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) session which will hopefully be a positive step towards managing this motherfucker.

I’ll leave you with a quote that perfectly describes my daily thoughts.

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