This is an important one for me, among many other things, it’s the reason I’ve decided to start blogging again.

“I’ve always been a worrier, it’s just the way I am.”

A couple of weeks ago I found out that that’s not entirely true. There’s a reason behind it all – turns out it’s not that normal to spend your life constantly worrying. I have anxiety, and recently it’s got worse.

It may sounds entirely stupid, but I’m glad it got worse. The anxiety & panic has been horrendous, don’t get me wrong, but without it starting to seriously affect my work, I’d have never done anything about it. I’d have never gone to the doctors. I’d have never heard the doctor say the words that really struck a chord.

“Humans aren’t naturally anxious.”

It may not sound like much, but hearing the doctor say that really hit home that this state of being that I was so used to wasn’t normal, it wasn’t just me and I could do something about it.

In the past couple of weeks, I’ve done plenty of research. The anxious feelings will probably never go away, but I can learn how to manage it. Learn how to stop the anxiety from progressing to panic. As well as trying some self help methods to try to manage my stress levels, I’ve booked my first Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) session which will hopefully be a positive step towards managing this motherfucker.

I’ll leave you with a quote that perfectly describes my daily thoughts.

IMG_0064Until next time,



3 thoughts on “LET’S TALK ABOUT ANXIETY.

  1. Dear Ellen,
    When you feel an anxious thought coming, please try this: watch it, but don’t judge it. Allow it to be there. This way, you are cutting the link between your thought and emotion. You allow the energy to move through your body and out of it. You will then feel your true essence, which is untouched by anything you did or was done to you. You are surrounded by all the love and help you need. Always. Namaste.

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  2. Great post lovely, I can completely empathise with this as I had panic attacks and severe anxiety from the ages of around 14-19ish and then they slowly eased off when I began uni. I think it’s so important to be open about anxiety and panic attacks; so many people I’ve spoken to have come out and said they’ve been through the same experience but before you know that it’s so easy to feel alone and afraid of it. I never even told anyone about the awful panics/thoughts I used to get until a few years ago and it’s like a weight is lifted! It’s great to see more people posting about it and being open about their experience x


    1. Thank you, I’ve held off actually telling anyone about the blog for a couple of weeks but it’s nice to finally be able to talk about it. You’ll know better than most that sometimes anxiety and panic is quite difficult to explain and I’ve found trying to write it all down quite therapeutic.

      I’ve been reading your blog too – I love your writing style! I really hope everything is going okay for you on the op front.



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