“I’ve always been a worrier, it’s just the way I am.”
A couple of weeks ago I found out that that’s not entirely true. There’s a reason behind it all – turns out it’s not that normal to spend your life constantly worrying. I have anxiety, and recently it’s got worse.
It may sounds entirely stupid, but I’m glad it got worse. The anxiety & panic has been horrendous, don’t get me wrong, but without it starting to seriously affect my work, I’d have never done anything about it. I’d have never gone to the doctors. I’d have never heard the doctor say the words that really struck a chord.
“Humans aren’t naturally anxious.”
It may not sound like much, but hearing the doctor say that really hit home that this state of being that I was so used to wasn’t normal, it wasn’t just me and I could do something about it.
In the past couple of weeks, I’ve done plenty of research. The anxious feelings will probably never go away, but I can learn how to manage it. Learn how to stop the anxiety from progressing to panic. As well as trying some self help methods to try to manage my stress levels, I’ve booked my first Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) session which will hopefully be a positive step towards managing this motherfucker.
I’ll leave you with a quote that perfectly describes my daily thoughts.
Until next time,